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i think im in love... with Matsumoto Jun !!! omg omg i love him so much O_O i first saw him in kimi wa petto.. and i found him so kawaiii... and after that i investigate and im downlaoding like 39579305 epidode of jdorama that hes in and hes in a jpop band called Arashi.... but hes the cutest ever!!!!!!!!!

see watch this!!! watch when he smiles!!!! (i know its very cheesy music... but now its stuck in my head.. i want more!!!!!





.... T_T

hey i got some new blog entry on my Myspace and pics too, a lil, go take a look ^^ im bored with X-posting XD

http://www.myspace.com/korin_sama

^^

Hi i just wanted to say that i dont update here very much now, im mostly on Myspace (www.myspace.com/korin_sama)

BUT

i DO read your LJ's and stuff so..dont delete me from ur friends cauz i dont update very much

go on myspace to see real updates
thank you :)

its all i have to say for now XDD

wow THAT is cool i just discover that if i swipe my bang on the side it gives a whole new look to my haircut so i got 2 looks for 1 haha thats great XD

(  look 1 )
( look 2 )

omg i love my hair SO much!! my hairdresser never did a awsome job like this! <33333333333
*ureshii*

( XD 13 photos )

yesterday i burn the Faith Tour and documentary from Hyde...i donwloaded it in great quality so..ON MY TV ITS FUCKING LOOKING AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!! HAIDO-SAMA!! OMG SO GOOD....HES SO...OMG VERYTHING I THINK HES GOD!!! XDDDDDDD...but i couldnt watch all the video yesterday because my bf was fed up with me being stupid XD..i need tokyoyume by my side haha

omg i just bought the DVD of the Family Values tour 2006 where dir en grey were a guest and omg there was like...nobody..almost..but still they are doing a coming ALONE in the US and canada, i know some of you already know this but wow evryone who likes them should try to go see their show XDD i would totally go but the only show in Canada is in toronto and its a FRIDAY at 5:30 pm ....%*"/?/(!!! what the idea to put a show on friday?!!!! plus it take 6 hours to get to Toronto from where i live......and im so mad because the ticket are so cheap!! 30$!!! OMG 30 bucks to see dir en grey.........im so sad

x-posted on myspace bulletin

mouhah i woke up this morning and i just realized i dreamt about tokyoyume
XDDD i was driving in car with my mom when suddently i saw Kikei going out of her car and lighting up a cigarrette XDD so i asked my mom " OMGG!!!!! PLEASE STOP!!! ITS KIKEI!!! "*%/$?$//"?*/"($"!!!!!!!!!!!" so she stop, obviously haha and i went to see her and for some reason my english was suddently real bad >< i had trouble to talk to her well i tried to present myself but at first she seems so..well not suprised but maybe more like shocked XDD and well we finnaly realised that we were living at like 20 min in car from each other XDDD..........that was such a useless dream loll....tho i wish i was livin just 20 min from her hahaha

haha i just found the coolest t-shirt loll only 12.99$ :P (well not THE coolest but the one in a long time haha)



oh and i also bought new boots XDD i LOVE them ^_^



.... and here's the whole lot togethere :P (jeans bought last week ...i and didnt wear anything else since i bought them XDDD they are perfect jean :P)



(oh and the belt i received from EBay 2 days ago XDDD....im ruined hahahha damn christmas presents >

i love my new shirt!!! among other thing i bought last friday XDD




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i just wrote that into Myspace and well it thought that since im updating something that i dont normally update (myspace) so should i update here  XDDD

so here's what i X-posted on Myspace

ok well i dont know.......it really well describe me right now, at this moment, i just dont know......i had a quite shitty day at work, accumulating stuff....i think my boos hates me...and for an unknown reason im doing some mistakes at works that i dont normally do..and i feel really bad...im trying to catch up but i feel unapreciated...

i dont know if all im doing right now in my life and that i thought was good for me,actually thought was the greatest time on my life...could possibly not be that great.....i dont know anymore about my job, my studies, my friends..my whole life doesnt make sense anymore. i feel like im missing something wonderful.

I currently have this visually great life, i mean i have a boyfriend that loves me and that i love, a great appartement a well paid job , lovely kitties, i actually thought about having children maybe soon and stuff, i was ready to settle down and i was feeling quite enthousiastic with all this....but i dont quite know it suddenly burst into my face that maybe i dont want that...theres so many things i want to do...wanted to do...didnt do...screwed up...
i still want to learn so many things, i love going to scholl but i lack motivation and im so shy and reserved and im totally unable to express myself without having those rollercoster emotions running thru my mind....when i go to school i miss like 30% of my classes because i know that ill do well and well most educational insitute juste dont tolerate this, i skip oral presentation cauz i think ill die while doing it so i prefer just not doing it....so well i guess im totally unable to achieve anything in school so i just wont do it..still i would love to go learn japanese, do design/clothing/sewing classes, photography classes...etc.....but at the same time i have to earn my life....money seems always to be a major problem in my life...and im totally unable to save money for anything money literally burn in my hands.....

And i want my party-like life back....yes im a quite reserved person..i dont speak to people very much in partys and bars and stuff unless i know the people quite well..i dont SEEM to enjoy it but i do...really...theres a bunch of people that i dont see,talk anymore and  all of this really misses me....my boyfriend doesnt like my friend cauz i had some "relationship" with a lot of them..cauz well they were my friends and i loveed them all...strangely enough....anyway i dont like having my bf around in partys...but i just feel bad about doing so cauz i know he doesnt like it....and i dont i can really be a "hurting" person for some people tho i dont want to..... and still...when i am in this kind of life i find myself hoping for some calmer times..and when i actually get it (like right now) i dont want it anymore....

in all the choices i make i cant stop myself from thinking what will my parents think (cauz they are very humm...NOT open-minded...they dont really accept my choices in life...and i dont want to deceived them)..in fact i dont want to deceived anyone...im always afraid to do some great sadness to someone...and i know,somtimes we dont have choice...we cant please everyone...but i really want to do my best....

tonight i thought having a kinda great night..since my bf's bro is staying at my place for some days and that my bf was away for a part of the night i thought i could have i dont know some conversation and fun with his bro cauz i thought we were actually getting along but like 10 min after my bf went off he decided to go to sleep, he didnt talk to me at all even tho i was trying to have some conversation...it disapointed me a lot.....

well...i know it was full of unclear thought and stuff....im hoping that someone will answer to me...give me advice..cheer me up at least...i actually want to know that someone REALLY cares about me other than my boyfriend cauz i know he does...

i dont wanna sounds depressed or anythign i dont want pity from you all...im not depressed..it just happen to me some time....and i cant seem to really get to know what is wrong..so well...itll be all for tonight....

thank you if u take the time to read all that stuff, and if u did...please just let me know u actually read it, no need to comment on other stuff...just say " hey i read your stuff to the end..i did care for 5 min!"

i'm someone who listen a lot to people and trying to help people...but when i try to speak up no one seems to listen for REAL...anyway..enough blabbing

Sincerly yours,
Andy

 

heya all....you... ><

dont quite know what to write tho i had some ideas before.....i met "recently" well in RL a very cool/great guy, we have a lot in common, mainly movies/horror movies, i would love to hang out wiht him more but he doesnt seems to be able to other than offering me ride to work....i dont know really why, as i understand it, it has something to do with his wife and friends relashionships that dont go too well together...anyway....

oh i watched Dario Argento's Suspiria, tho i had great expectations i wasnt THAT let down by the movie..you know when u have high expectations...
i thought it was great, the music score was awsome!!...the ending was a little rushed tho...i really want to watch more Argento movies, and if im lucky there will be other great one ^_^

....oh my Internet connection is down at home for like 4 days and i dont know why and my service provider didnt answered me yet...it sucks.....and i ahve to get back to work ><

^_^
it's been one year today that i'm with my boyfriend im so happy about it ^_^ i never thought it could work out that well but it did :)

god its been years since i posted here ><

ive been really sick lately, didnt go to work for 3 days.... im still sick, i hope ill get better soon....

...

other range of ideas, lately i really want to dye my hair BLONDE really lite lite lite lite Blonde with black streak ...something like this :


( ^^ )

but i know i CANT my hair wont allow me to /cry

i already did it like a year ago...but it went so much longer haha

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.


* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.    (half bold cauz if half true, only sone rare time when i have to read and im sleepy or something)
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
* I curse sometimes.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (only wheni dont need to go out :P)
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (or at least the i try to be ><)
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (i missed school so i could download miyavi's album last year :P)
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (normally, but i dont care if the person is really cool)
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced. (well i have piercing but not my ears lol)
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
*I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much. (almost)
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries or provinces`.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.(mainly for jokes, though.)
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercing.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro game consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories. ( yaoi ^^)
* I am compulsively honest. ( I lie to family alot )
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. i always hated my hair><
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.(sometimes)
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing. but i sing horribly bad :P
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
* I wish there was a way to erase past mistakes.
* I wish I could do High School all over again.
* I have big interest swings every year.
* I have loved Pokemon since the beginning and continue to do so.
* I am the only one who can navigate my room without stepping on something.
* There's no genre of music I dislike.
* I've read every work written by my favorite author(s).
* No matter how much I sleep, I'm always tired.
* I'd rather eat out than cook.
* I have higher expectations of myself than others seem to.
* I work in tech support
* I have a habit of spending more money then I usually have.
* I know what it's like to fly on the trapeze.
* I fantasize about things I've done in the way I think I should've done them.
* I like cheese.
* My favorite color is purple
* I could live off salad
* I want to be a midwife.
* I am obsessed with putting lemon on my food.
* I love cats.
* I want to be a broadway star.
* I have my own computer
* Nobody knows the real me
* I don't care about the gender of someone in love.
* I'm SEEING MUCC IN LESS THAN A MONTH NOW YOU BITCHES.
*I love guy with long hair

lol had some time to waste, done some quizzies :P

(  onto the quizzies!! )

ook thats enough i have other things to do >< :P

God this LJ needed a make-over :P

its not that great yet but i was just making test ><....still, i better like this one hehe.....
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i want cinnamon gum >